I have been through a very strange experience these past few weeks. What started out as nausea, turned into gallstones. I was having a really difficult time with it too. The pain and nausea were getting to me. I went to the hospital twice for my pancreas which was getting affected by the gallstones. I ended up getting my gallbladder out which was supposed to be in and out in one day. I found out that during surgery I had three arteries instead of one. I had gotten two blood transfusions because it had gotten complicated during the surgery. I stayed in the hospital for this for two days. Considering that I had lost some blood and have a big gash in my abdomen, I got out pretty quick. I am home recovering well. I am almost back to normal physically. Just need to rest and take it easy. Not something I am used to either. Here are my thoughts about all this...

I am glad that I made it through the surgery. I am glad that I am healing fast enough for me. This is the time in my life that I realize that i am worth something to myself and others. I no matter what I have been through in my life know that I am here and want to be here.

When things get tough
And you feel there is nothing for you
Sometimes a simple thing
Can get you to see
That you are here and real
No one can tell you
That you are nothing
Everyone is someone to me
If you look deep inside
To see the reality of you
Try to remember
You are special to you



Rebecca Smith