There is a saying

What goes around comes around

I have seen the good side

Of that very phrase

One good turn deserves another

That also has been found

To have truth to it

First hand knowledge of this

I may not do as good

As another

I do as good as I am capable

And the good turn came to me

To know people are good out there

Not everyone has the attitude

It seems I have come 

In contact with personally

I am wrong in one thing

There are good people

Ones who do care truthfully

Not act as if they do

An run at the sign of trouble

Becky Smith 1/13/12

My niece

This about my niece. She is not speaking to me at this time. I don't say I blame her, because I had to kick her dad out of the apartment we live in. I had no choice and that is all I am going to say about that. I wish there was someway I could make it all better between us, but I can't. She has to be the one to stop being angry with me. Whether I did the right thing or not is now the past. I love my niece to death. She is the one shining light in the doom and gloom in the family. I liked to talk to her about stuff and I liked everything we said. My son as smart as he is, needs some work in the behavior department. He is learning and my shining light being my son. My niece is special to me and it is hard for me to not know how she is doing and how good she does in school. Works hard to get good grades. Well I hope one day she sees me and we work out the one thing that hurt her. It was not meant to hurt her. If I did something it was the last resort. I did try. 

rainbow full of colors

I have a rainbow
That is full of colors
I see them so clearly right now
It feels so good to me


Why the sudden change
I don't know
It feels so weird
To be seeing the light so bright


A switch of all switches
So fast my head is spinning
I am going to take 
What is in front of me


Yet the fear the sadness
Will return soon 
Puts a damper on feeling good
Not for long though


Feeling good is nice
The special feeling of happiness
Is something I don't take for granted
It is something I cherish
Not push away




Becky Smith              12/28/11




What a switch in moods. I am spinning as I said, but I am happy to feel good. I will not push myself into depression if I can help it. Happy day to all.

I feel horrible
I wish there was more to life
Than feeling like crap all the time
When will I feel good


It's not the body 
That betrays me this time
No imbalance as I see
So what is the deal to the depression


If I could just figure out
The things which are bothering me
Which have a hold on my being
Maybe, just maybe I will feel okay


For now I wait
I try to see the good
In the bad I feel this time
I hope for a miracle
This will lift and I can be me again








Becky Smith                                 12/25/11

The Life

The Life


What is the life
I am living in now
The decay of my mind
Seems so much further now


Depression is teeming
Through the good days I have
Seems to be more now
Than ever before


In the good days 
I feel happy as a lark
Wanting to feel it 
Forever ever more


Yet the despair in my mind
Keeps coming back
To threaten my resolve
Too waiver my being










Becky Smith                                          11/26/11


This is how I feel at times with the changes in my moods. It may be some depressing sounding, but there are happy days too. 

today i write

Just a quick one this day. I would like to say this...don't take things for granted, be glad you have what you have. That is all i have for today. I think it speaks volumes though. 

On my mind

I am a vast wealth of emotions
Can I see past them all
Is there an answer 
To my question at all

I have the knowledge 
To get through the emotions
But when it comes down to it
I seem to forget it all

In my years of going through
The mental challenge I have
To sort through the emotions
It is a adventure in all

I am forever going to be
An emotional gal
The answer to my question
I have known it all along


Becky Smith                4/28/11