rainbow full of colors

I have a rainbow
That is full of colors
I see them so clearly right now
It feels so good to me


Why the sudden change
I don't know
It feels so weird
To be seeing the light so bright


A switch of all switches
So fast my head is spinning
I am going to take 
What is in front of me


Yet the fear the sadness
Will return soon 
Puts a damper on feeling good
Not for long though


Feeling good is nice
The special feeling of happiness
Is something I don't take for granted
It is something I cherish
Not push away




Becky Smith              12/28/11




What a switch in moods. I am spinning as I said, but I am happy to feel good. I will not push myself into depression if I can help it. Happy day to all.

I feel horrible
I wish there was more to life
Than feeling like crap all the time
When will I feel good


It's not the body 
That betrays me this time
No imbalance as I see
So what is the deal to the depression


If I could just figure out
The things which are bothering me
Which have a hold on my being
Maybe, just maybe I will feel okay


For now I wait
I try to see the good
In the bad I feel this time
I hope for a miracle
This will lift and I can be me again








Becky Smith                                 12/25/11