Flip up again

If there is a way to know
How I will feel in a day
I would be able to warn
Myself before it happens
Not feel like I am a mystery
To myself and others
I want to be one
In mind and body
Spirit and soul
With the things I have in me
I am always going to be uncertain
Of what my moods will do
I sit and wait for the next
Mood swing to happen
On and on I go
On and an I will keep going


Becky Smith            3/31/11

this life of mine

This life of mine
Is something to be misleading
Thinking that it is good
It is something that I want changed


What can I do to make it better
I feel my roller coaster moods
Counter productive
To what I really want out of my life


This life of mine
How do i know
When it will be right
If it will ever be settled down


There are some things I do
That are good for me
Yet when the moods go haywire
I am a basket case inside


This life of mine
Will it ever calm down 
Will I be something to me
Will I ever feel the same


Becky Smith                                             3/30/11

There are thoughts in my head

These thoughts cause me grief

Give me feeling of being useless

Of having nothing to go for

I am fighting a battle days in

And days out

Trying to figure out where I need to go

What I need to do

I am at a crossroads with my life

Maybe what men call

Mid life crisis

Trying to see where I fit in the scheme of things

I have come to the conclusion

That I will find who I am

One way or another no matter

What it takes to get to that conclusion

Rebecca Smith 3/3/11

That is my thought for the day.

My list is:

Help my hubby find a job.

Crochet and accomplish at three to six afghans

Write and type my poetry in the computer

Becky